Good Morning Indeed

“Good morning.” I said.

Adam woke me up by kissing my forehead.

Rocks

I’ve been back to work for almost a week and it all seems so…weird. Being back has been helping keep me distracted and things are going to get pretty busy next week as we’re going to start rehearsals for the next show (we just finished auditions for it and they went okay) while simultaneously having performances in the evening. The overlap will last a few weeks until the new show is ready to go into tech; we’ll have to strike our current show the week before while simultaneously loading in the new set. It’ll be pretty hectic but I think the distraction is the best thing for me.

The Final Gift

Slowly, painfully, things are going back to normal. Well, my new normal…without Anna. Occasionally I will see or do or smell something that will remind me of her and it will feel like a bucket of ice water is poured over me as someone punches me in the gut. I can’t breathe and it all comes rushing back. Like what happened yesterday.

Granted

At our last session, Dr. Sheehan said that my grief for Anna would ease with time and that getting back to my old routine would help me move on. The problem was…I didn’t want to move on.

Silence, My Old Friend

We buried Anna today.

This is the End

And on that cheery last post, Modern Day Faith is officially over forever.
Thanks for reading!
-del

A Beautiful Day

The day was so sunny and wonderful. But it's always calmest before the storm, right?

We Need to Talk

I was having a productive morning before the knock on the door came. I’d gotten up early, taken Sasha for a run, showered, and took stock of our groceries to make a list for later. Molly had spent the night at Calvin’s and wasn’t home yet. When I heard someone knock on the door, I had a feeling of dread come crashing over me.

Down in The Dumps

“He’s going to dump me.” I whined to Anna over brunch.

I’d met her for brunch to get her take on this situation because I could tell that Molly and Zoey were tired of hearing me overanalyze it with them. I didn’t want to bother Anna with her due date so close but I really needed some advice.

Morning Mash-Up

I woke up to an empty bed and the sounds of Adam cooking in someone’s kitchen.

“Good morning.” I said giving him a hug from behind.

He was standing at the stove making scrambled eggs in his pajama pants and his hair was disheveled from sleeping.

“Good morning to you.” He pulled me around, put his arm over my shoulder, and gave me a kiss.

Body Language

“Adam?” I called.

I had just gotten done with a show and went to Adam’s apartment right after it so we could talk about the discussion I’d overheard with between him and Peter. I walked in, took my shoes off, and called for him.

“In here!” Adam’s voice rang out from his bedroom.

Friends and Foes

This weekend I met Adam’s friends and he met mine. And let me just tell you it was a DOOZY of a weekend.

Friendlies

Adam and I were out on a date. The weather was finally not blisteringly cold so we met up at a park and walked around near the lake for awhile until the wind picked and we were too cold. We ended up going to a little Italian place for dinner.

I wore a black scoop neck dress with ¾ sleeves and some black booties and Adam was wearing a grey sweater that really brought out his beautiful green eyes and dark wash jeans. We looked good.

Handiwork

I called Zoey a few days after I left her in her apartment to see if she’d had any clarity with a few days to think about it.

“No. I don’t know. I keep going back and forth. Maybe I SHOULD just talk to Theo. Maybe I’m just making a big deal out of nothing. Why don’t YOU talk to Theo?”

“You want ME to bring this up with him?” I asked.

Herstory

The girls and I were doing dinner and a movie. We’d just left the movie theater and headed to a cool new restaurant that was known for its gourmet burgers.