I checked my e-mail and had a response from Sean:
I’ll be there on Wednesday but I’ll only be able to stay for a few hours.
With that news I decided to get cracking on the list of questions I want answered. Not only did Dr. Sheehan say that the list will help me get the closure I need if I decide to then end the relationship, but she said it will help me keep my emotions in check, which was something I brought up to her. I feel like every time Sean and I go through a fight or an argument (which, thinking about our relationship as a whole, seems like a pretty frequent thing) I always get emotional and sometimes lose my ground because of it. Dr. Sheehan also suggested that we see a couple’s counselor if I choose to continue the relationship. I agree and I’ve asked her for a recommendation. I’ve decided that the couple’s counselor is going to be something I need Sean to agree to. I know it’ll put a large burden on him what with the tour and him being gone, but I don’t see how we can repair what’s been broken or rebuild without the help of a professional.
So right now my demands are:
· Tthat we see a counselor every two weeks (personally I would like it to be every week, but I know Sean will not be able to do that)
· Tthat he answer all of my questions and tell me everything
· Tthe engagement is completely off
So…it’s not a very long list of demands, my list of questions is a lot longer and continuing to grow with each day. If I’m being honest, I think I’m being really generous by listening to what Sean has to say for himself and I also feel really stupid for even entertaining the idea that I not dump him immediately for what he did.
I don’t need a boyfriend, guys, not when I have one man who will never leave me. Murphy has been so great to me through this. I think pets can sense when we’re sad and Murphy has always been really intuitive and protective of me (I mean, he DID attack Gerry when Gerry threatened me in my kitchen). I should just adopt 8 more cats and become a crazy cat lady who is destined to be alone.