Slowly, painfully, things are going back to normal. Well, my new normal…without Anna. Occasionally I will see or do or smell something that will remind me of her and it will feel like a bucket of ice water is poured over me as someone punches me in the gut. I can’t breathe and it all comes rushing back. Like what happened yesterday.
Monday, April 14, 2014
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
Friday, March 28, 2014
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
I was having a productive morning before the knock on the door came. I’d gotten up early, taken Sasha for a run, showered, and took stock of our groceries to make a list for later. Molly had spent the night at Calvin’s and wasn’t home yet. When I heard someone knock on the door, I had a feeling of dread come crashing over me.
Sunday, March 23, 2014
“He’s going to dump me.” I whined to Anna over brunch.
I’d met her for brunch to get her take on this situation because I could tell that Molly and Zoey were tired of hearing me overanalyze it with them. I didn’t want to bother Anna with her due date so close but I really needed some advice.
Thursday, March 20, 2014
I woke up to an empty bed and the sounds of Adam cooking in someone’s kitchen.
“Good morning.” I said giving him a hug from behind.
He was standing at the stove making scrambled eggs in his pajama pants and his hair was disheveled from sleeping.
“Good morning to you.” He pulled me around, put his arm over my shoulder, and gave me a kiss.
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
“Adam?” I called.
I had just gotten done with a show and went to Adam’s apartment right after it so we could talk about the discussion I’d overheard with between him and Peter. I walked in, took my shoes off, and called for him.
“In here!” Adam’s voice rang out from his bedroom.
Monday, March 10, 2014
Friday, March 7, 2014
Adam and I were out on a date. The weather was finally not blisteringly cold so we met up at a park and walked around near the lake for awhile until the wind picked and we were too cold. We ended up going to a little Italian place for dinner.
I wore a black scoop neck dress with ¾ sleeves and some black booties and Adam was wearing a grey sweater that really brought out his beautiful green eyes and dark wash jeans. We looked good.
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
I called Zoey a few days after I left her in her apartment to see if she’d had any clarity with a few days to think about it.
“No. I don’t know. I keep going back and forth. Maybe I SHOULD just talk to Theo. Maybe I’m just making a big deal out of nothing. Why don’t YOU talk to Theo?”
“You want ME to bring this up with him?” I asked.
Saturday, March 1, 2014
Monday, February 24, 2014
We opened the show. Opening night went okay but now that we are actually running it nightly, it’s a lot smoother. All the tech issues had been sorted out on our preview nights and the renovation was completed the night before our official grand opening. We received a lot of support from the community and it was nice to see. Mostly, though, I was relieved that we had finally opened and tech was over. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced such a difficult tech before. I was SO not expecting opening to go well that I asked the girls and Adam not to come.
So last night I was not expecting to get done locking everything up and walking out to the lobby to leave only to find my boyfriend sitting on a bench with a bouquet of flowers waiting for me.
Saturday, February 15, 2014
I’m in the middle of tech and things have just been CRAZY. The moving set piece I mentioned awhile ago? Yeah, it’s broken and in need of an emergency part that we may not be able to get in time for opening night. The theatre’s renovation is also behind and, again, we don’t know if it’ll be ready in time for opening night. You can imagine where my stress levels are right now, especially when you consider that I haven’t slept more than five hours a night since it started because of how many things there are for me to get done.
When everything had wrapped on Friday night at 11:00pm I was absolutely exhausted. Molly offered to drop me off at home before she went over to Calvin’s to celebrate Valentine’s Day.
“Thanks again.” I said tapping on the roof of her car as she waved goodbye.
I trudged into the lobby of our building and leaned against the elevator wall as I rode it up to my apartment. I saw something laying in front of our door as I walked down the hallway.