I saw the pregnancy test’s result and started crying. Then I
heard Brad start crying. When I looked at him, it was with abject horror.
He was SMILING and had tears in his eyes. He pulled me into a hug.
“Faith, this is wonderful! We’re going to have a kid!”
I pushed him away and stood up.
“You’re HAPPY about this!?”
“You’re NOT?”
I gave Brad a dirty look.
“Do I LOOK like I’m happy about this?” I snarled.
Brad pulled me down to sit on the edge of the tub.
“You’re just freaking out. This is going to be okay. We can
do this. You’ll quit your stage management job, I’ll ask for a raise, then we
can-”
“Excuse me?” I said. I was in shock.
“What?”
“QUIT my job?”
“Oh, come on, Faith. It’s time to act like an adult and be serious.
You can’t work those hours when you’re a mom. It’s not a real job anyway.”
I stormed out of the bathroom absolutely livid.
“I cannot believe you just…Are you even….I can’t.” I threw
my hands up.
He tried to pull me in for a hug but I pushed him away.
“I don’t even know if I WANT to be a mom right now, Brad.
Does that even matter to you?”
“You only feel like that because this was a surprise.”
“This isn’t a surprise it’s a NIGHTMARE.”
Brad sat me down on the couch and held my hand.
“Can you just try to calm down? This isn’t the worst thing
in the world.” He said.
He pulled my chin up so I’d look at him.
“You aren’t alone in this. I’ll be there for you. Can you
just do me a favor?”
I softened a bit.
“What?”
“Can you just promise me you’ll take a few days to think
about this?”
A tear ran down my cheek but I nodded. Brad kissed me
lightly.
“I need to go.” I said grabbing my purse and standing up to
leave.
“Where are you going?”
“I’m going to go home. I want to be alone.”
“Faith?”
I turned when I reached the door.
“I love you.”
I smiled sadly at Brad.
“What exactly happens now?” He asked almost child-like, “With
the…”
He motioned to my abdomen.
“I…um…I’ll need to go to the doctor to see how far along I
am and get prenatal vitamins and stuff.”
I left his apartment and practically sprinted down his steps
and to my apartment. When I got home I threw up in my bathroom from nerves, or
maybe morning sickness, and then sat on my bathroom floor and sobbed.
I haven’t told any of the girls about this yet. I have a
doctor’s appointment next week; I’m going to go alone.
I’m so scared.
Just.....WOW.
ReplyDeleteWell Faith, you don't live in Texas so you've got options.
ReplyDeleteThe baby is the only one I feel sorry for.
ReplyDeleteI just can't with Faith anymore. She is a immature moron.
What a mess. mum
ReplyDeleteCould it be possible that Mike is the dad? I guess we'll find out when the doc says how far along she is.
ReplyDeleteHoping Mike is the Dad is the ONLY positive in this situation. Faith is stupid for having stayed with Brad for as long as she has. Pregnant or not, I think she still needs to dump Brad. Also, if she opts to keep the baby, she needs to take the time while pregnant to straighten out her life so she can be a positive rolemodel and not a whacked up mess. I'm soooooo over Faith!!!
ReplyDeletewow people are so ruthless when it comes to Faith. i get it, she doesnt have the best track record and all but dayyum. no one is perfect and sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom before u can pick urself back up.
ReplyDeletei think this shakes Faiths world up more than a little bit.
"what a mess" is accurate, @ mum.
The thing is Faith is a woman in her mid twenties who has been through a lot. And has learned nothing! Not only is she stringing along Brad for some stupid reasons, she did it without using protection. She is not a teenager. Following this story since the beginning there is a time to say enough is enough. Faith is now responsible for making decisions for a helpless child. And I have lost faith that she can.
ReplyDeleteShe needs to grow up now. She cant be the poor pathetic helpless person anymore. That child is innocent and deserves more than two mid twenty somethings pretending to be adults. I saw the trailer for Teen Mom 3 right after I read this post. Faith look at your future with Brad right there!
Faith was on the pill. She even checked her calendar and made sure that she hadn't missed one. Getting pregnant on the pill is rare, but possible.
DeleteFaith knows what it is like to be cheated on, so she knows there is no guarantee that a man is only sleeping with her. Plus his past sexual history The pill doesn't protect against HIV, STD's, etc. Come on she is not a teenager anymore. Stupid, Stupid, Stupid!
DeleteI thought about that possibility also; wouldn't that be an interesting plot-twist (for Mike to be the father)? The only thing is, Mike & Faith were supposed to have broken up for good on Valentine's Day, and probably last had sex around the 1st 10 days or so in February (so, about 3 1/2 to 4 months ago in real-time when matched up with the blog's dates). While some women still get periods while pregnant, wouldn't she have some sort of clue (for a while now) that her body wasn't quite acting the same? She'd be finishing up her first trimester by this point, close to her second. I've had 3 babies, am small-boned and thin (isn't Faith's frame similar to this?), and I knew within the first couple of weeks of being pregnant that my body was going through changes...even if others couldn't tell by actually looking at me. While it may take longer than that for her to notice any changes, Faith's body would *feel* and look different to HER sooner than this belated point - wouldn't it? My small-built friends tell me the same thing about their pregnancies (similar to my experience, I mean). You just really notice some things with this body type. Also, no "morning sickness" - just a jump in overall appetite to build up and ready the body for carrying a developing baby. Faith hasn't mentioned either feeling nauseous OR a need for more food (until this post, which *usually* happens much sooner in a pregnancy); most women experience one, the other, or both at various points during the first trimester of pregnancy. Then again...not everyone is the same; maybe the extreme need for more sleep and other physical sensations aren't something Faith has been experiencing, or she could be oblivious because of all the added work and stress. That would be pretty oblivious, though.
ReplyDeleteWe'll see - maybe it's Del's way of getting Faith and Mike talking again, which would have to happen if she were pregnant with his child. There'd also be the question of *who's* the father - Mike or Brad. Nail-biter. She'd probably make a fantastic mommie, but it doesn't seem like her head's been in a good place (for some time now) to take on something like this. People who are basically *good* do tend to rise to whatever is necessary when someone else is depending on them, though. Faith is basically a good person with a loving heart and sound values, so it could be just what she needs to become the person she actually is, regardless of all this nonsense she's been engaging in on & off.
*I had this posted on the last entry ("The Thin Red Line?") after reading a comment there about the possibility of Mike being the dad; it fits here, too.
It *could* happen, but seems strange to me that Faith would be THAT unaware for that length of time. Somewhere close to 4 months along for a thin woman...being pregnant for that long has LOTS of physical signs and symptoms - hard to miss. Interesting possibility, though.
in her defense, I am small boned and a wee thing myself.. and i didn't know I was pregnant until almost 4 months along. I went to the dr because i was so underweight, and i had gained about 7 lbs, so i was excited, and went and said "see?! im getting better! how did the blood tests go? are my iron levels back up?"
Deletehe said "uh, yeah, and, you're pregnant. that is why you gained 7 lbs!!!"
some people just don't know.. im lucky, even on the pill, if i get my period once in 5 months. I skip, am irregular. I also have endometriosis, so the cramping is normal to me. i didn't start to show with my son until I was.... almost 6 months pregnant. I will say though, I would have known shortly after the doc told me, because at 16 weeks I started to feel the "bubbles" of his movements.
under stress, i didn't notice the changes.. until my doctor said i was pregnant, then i thought about it and was like, oh, well. yeah.. i have noticed im hungry more.. and im peeing more.. i just thought the stress in my life was causing everything.
KB
I see what you're saying about your experience. But, I don't think it's the norm for most smaller-built women. Also, Faith mentioned that she's very regular with her period; she doesn't miss them normally. Though, I think (didn't go back to read) she mentioned only being a couple of weeks late for her period anyway.
DeleteIf Mike isn't the dad then I'm thinking that Faith got pregnant round about the time when she was sick and had bronchitis and strep throat. Maybe she took some meds that affected the efficiency of the pill.
ReplyDeleteThat would make sense, and would realistically fit in with what's going on. Faith said she hadn't missed taking any of her birth control pills. Unless...Brad *really* wanted to seal the deal with her and decided a baby would be exactly the way to do that; replacing her pills with a placebo? I wouldn't want to think he'd go to those extremes; too weird.
Deletenow THAT would be a twist. but i dont think he's that far ahead of himself lol.. wouldnt be too surprised tho! crazy is as crazy does!
DeleteWithout a doubt; Del sure is writing Brad's character with a generous portion of loon these past few weeks. Anybody who behaves so desperately always comes off as kind of eerie. Even if he turns out to be "right" in the head, the intense clinging is unappealing, to say the least. Wonder why exactly (besides the sex) Faith has allowed this situation to limp on & on. Guilt, maybe? She questions whether she might love Brad...yet seems to be annoyed & repelled by him simultaneously. Resembles some of the unhappier marriages I've observed over the years, ironically.
DeleteI definitely think it's out of guilt. I mean, that's pretty much what their whole relationship has been based on, hasn't it? Brad guilts her into doing things for him or being with him all the time it seems. At least, before they started dating he guilted her a lot. I can't imagine their relationship right now doesn't have similar elements to that.
DeleteYeah, I think there's probably a pretty strong element of guilt there for Faith. Obviously, that's not strong glue for a healthy love relationship - for either party. This should have ended before it started, if that's truly the case. However, I do think it's worth noting that Faith is *not* what I'd consider a "victim" here; she's played the leading role in the 4-star dysfunctional creep show of "Dumb & Dumber." When she *initially* realized she didn't have love feelings for Brad (it seems safe to assume she doesn't, by her reactions to him on a regular basis), Faith needed to stay out of his bed and out of his head. That was a LONG time ago...well before Mike came along. She and Brad go back quite a ways, and there was always this element of strong attraction/dysfunction between them. Faith didn't treat Brad with the same decent consideration as we're used to seeing her treat people in most situations, while simultaneously allowing a false hope of a possible intimacy to grow between them by continuing to engage in intimate behavior and emotional contact with him. That's a recipe for disaster, you know?
DeleteHow do you treat a guy (or anybody, really) who you want to keep a healthy emotional and physical distance from? I keep things on a safe, non-personal level and don't let them get too close. It's kind of instinctual, and I think most folks are similar that way. The way Faith has behaved with Brad has been a back & forth, all-over kind of deal right from the start. Then, *this* ridiculous sadomasochistic dance she's been doing with him for the past couple of months.
To me, Brad is delusional, desperate, irritating, and way too doggedly persistent (overall), but Faith is the *real* manipulator in this situation. She's the one who's had the control from the very start, and she's very seriously misused and abused it. Their whole "relationship" (a term used very liberally) has been in the palm of her shaky little hands from the very beginning. Faith fumbled the ball on the first play of the first quarter, as far as I'm concerned - and she KNOWS it. That's where all her guilt is coming from. I don't like how Brad interprets Faith's reactions and feelings (like some of the other readers have commented)...but that tendency seems little more than a desperate lover trying to see things through rose-colored glasses who's been allowed to hope (on & off) since the beginning. If he *DOES* turn out to be a truly dangerous weirdo - as some readers are predicting - it will only be Del's way of developing his character into exit-mode. And, he could have gone either way almost right up to this point. It's just that his character has become *such* an annoying douche, it'd be pretty hard to redeem him into Prince Charming at this late date.
I still would rather Faith not be pregnant (false positive or something). But, if she is, I do think she'll make an exceptional mommie; it's in her nature, the way the character has been written all along. It'll be her wake-up call, so-to-speak.
Maybe its a false positive, or a chemical pregnancy...
ReplyDeleteThe pregnancy story line is just...crazy town.
ReplyDeleteBut aside from that, it really, really bothered me that Brad immediately jumped to Faith quitting her CAREER (that she could sit down most of the time if she needed to when she's pregnant) as soon as he heard she was pregnant but NOT the job he knows she hates (that would require her to be on her feet all shift and be around drunk people and be pregnant while making drinks while pregnant? For real!?). What an ass! So first he tells her to give up on her career cause it's not an adult job while his ass is working at a fricking record store!?
But, no, FAITH is the one that has to quit her career and get an "adult" job, not her loser boyfriend. UGH. I hate Bad! I hope Del kills him off by having him get hit by a bus or something. Geez!
Luckily, I don't think Faith is idiotic enough yet to even consider quitting her job. It was “You only feel like that because this was a surprise” that was a huge red flag for me.
DeleteBrad is a classic manipulator. He causes Faith to question herself and her gut instincts to the point where she didn't know if she has feelings for him (how do you NOT know if you have feelings for someone??) He told her point blank that the way she knew she was feeling about being pregnant was wrong. He has psycho control freak written all over him. Faith needs to get out now. Praying that this baby is a fluke and that it's really Mike's if it isn't a fluke.
Even if the baby is Mike's which would be best case scenario, odds of him wanting faith back after all this is slim to none. Can't say I would blame him though.
ReplyDeleteFaith why couldn't u have left everything with Brad alone?!?
Anon 8:43 PM "I hope Del kills him off by having him get hit by a bus or something." LMAO! I love the passionate responses this story brings out of people.
ReplyDeleteI don't think Mike is the dad. The dates just don't seem to work. Love this blog! mum