Molly and I met Zoey for lunch yesterday and it felt so
weird to not have Anna there. I tried not to notice it and updated Zoey on the
situation with Tucker and work.
“He’s horrible. We had our first rehearsal on Tuesday and I
swear, Zoey, if he calls me ‘sweetheart’ one more time, I will punch him in the
face.”
“Gross. Has he slept with any of your cast members yet?”
Zoey asked while digging into her salad.
“Not yet. Nick is confident that having him sign that
contract will prevent him from doing so but I don’t believe it for a second.”
“Tucker is causing problems for costumes, as well. He came
to the costume shop after rehearsal to see if we could and I quote: ‘sex up
Anne a bit.’ As is Anne Frank, the main character in our play about the
Holocaust. Because when I think the Holocaust, I think sexy.” Molly rolled her
eyes and harrumphed.
“Are you serious?” I asked, “One of the reasons everyone was
so on board with hiring him was because he agreed to not change any of the
designs. Typical.”
I crossed my arms and suddenly lost my appetite for my
chicken sandwich.
“So…how’s work?” I asked Zoey tentatively.
“Things are…weird without her. Every time I walk by her
office I expect to see her and it’s like a punch in the gut when I see the girl
they hired to replace her last week. I was barely used to seeing Anna’s office
empty, now we have this new girl.”
“Is she horrible?” Molly asked.
“No.” Zoey looked disappointed, “But she’s not Anna and our
co-workers just…I don’t know, it’s just weird. Like, we all know who she’s
there to replace and none of us are pleased but it’s not because of her, it’s
just because the whole reason she was even hired was because our friend died,
you know?”
“Are they treating her rudely?” I asked.
“Not really? Just…there’s definitely a chilly feeling
towards her though and it’s not her fault but it’s not exactly a fixable thing
either. People just need time, I guess.”
“Does she know…?” Molly asked.
“I’m pretty sure she does, if she didn’t know when she
accepted the job offer, she’s definitely been told by SOMEONE by now.”
“It sounds like a hard place for her to be in.” I said
quietly.
“I don’t envy her.” Zoey said.
The three of us grew silent and very aware that there should
have been four of us sitting at the table. But there wasn’t. I shivered but I
wasn’t cold.
“So…” Zoey said changing the subject, “Faith, how’s
everything with Adam going.”
“Really, really well. I didn’t know that relationships could
feel so…easy? He gave me a drawer at his place on Monday night and I totally
cried.”
“Why?” Molly asked.
“I have no idea. I think I was just… overcome with emotion?
I started my period this morning so that was probably part of it.”
“Understandable.” Zoey said.
“Adam is going to take me out to celebrate the close of our
show next week. He said it was going to be super fancy. I can’t wait. It’s been
a really long time since I’ve celebrated anything.”
“That sounds like fun,” Molly said, “And here Calvin is
thinking that us doing our laundry together counts as an acceptable date for
date night.”
“Ew, laundry for date night?” Zoey crinkled her nose.
“Yeah, and somehow it just turned into me doing both of our
laundry hauls while he took a nap. Calvin is on my bad list right now, if you
couldn’t tell. It’s stuff like that that reminds me how right I was to refuse
to move in with him.”
“What about you, Zoe? Any dating news?” I asked.
“Not really. I’ve just been going on dates occasionally.
None of them have turned into a regular thing. I’m starting to think I should
try online dating or something. It’s been almost a year and a half since Wesley
and I broke up. Maybe…maybe I made a mistake and he was the one I was supposed
to stay with forever and now I’m never going to find someone.”
“You’ll find someone.” Molly said.
“There’s no shame in online dating, either.” I pointed out, “But
one thing’s for sure, if you stop putting yourself out there, you really won’t
find someone. And there’s nothing wrong with that, either, if that’s what you
want. Being single has its merits that being in a relationship doesn’t.”
“You guys are right.” Zoey said picking at her salad.
Hanging out with my girls yesterday was fun but I can’t
shake the feeling of sadness knowing that Anna should’ve been there and wasn’t.
I told Adam about how I felt later that night as we took Sasha for a walk.
“When will I be able to get through a day without being
reminded of her and feeling so sad about it?” I sighed.
“It’s going to take a long time, but the way I see it…you
don’t want to stop having those moments. Being reminded of Anna and being able
to smile about a memory you have of her will eventually replace the feeling of
sadness, but not for a long time.”
I was quiet for a long time.
“Hey.” I looked up at him, “It’s okay to miss her.”
I nodded as he pulled me into a hug.
I kinda wanted her to be pregnant lol
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad she's NOT pregnant. I'm so glad she is in an easy relationship for a change. Relationships are hard work, but they should be easy. I was married for 10 years and it was an uphill battle all the time. We finally divorced and I remarried and the 10 years we have spent together have been amazing. Ups and downs sure, but easy and amazing...that's what Anna needs. I do hope she eventually gets married and has kids, but not for a while.
ReplyDeleteYou mean Faith.
DeleteI'm not saying mike has to come back romantically...even though I would love that...but I would like to know how he's been.
ReplyDeleteI still miss Mike. I liked how they were when they were together. I mean Adam is nice but I was upset for a long time when things didn't work out with Mike.
ReplyDeleteI'm actually more interested in how Sean is doing and whether he and Karen are still together and whether he's actually helping raising the kid etc. It would be interesting to see what would happen if she were to bump into him somehow.
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